The Law of Attraction- An In Depth Study

The only thing I've been doing lately is studying the Law of Attraction. It keeps pestering me, haunting me, gnawing at me. I've written about it before, because the Law is related to the idea that thoughts have power, and having OCD already leaves me believing that thoughts have power, and the only way to be free of it is to destroy that belief. I know, the Law of Attraction is supposed to be an Absolute, undeniable law/fact... pretty hard to prove that claim wrong, but it is necessary for my well-being. Years ago I was attracted to New Age beliefs. I read books by Neale Donald Walsch and Wayne Dyer and Deepak Chopra, and they were all fascinating books, but eventually they only spoke to the negativity in me. There's only so many times I can read "thoughts have power" before it starts to bother me. Thankfully, this study I did, by reading the book The Law of Attraction by Jerry and Esther Hicks, I have discovered that thoughts having power doesn't mean I have power over anyone else's experience. I can't kill others with a thought. I can't cause war or destruction or violence in other's live with thought. I have power over my own experience, and that has always been true, I can choose my perceptions, I can choose how to act, I can choose what to look at and what it means to me. I still cannot go so far as to say that I have brought all of my experiences to myself through the power of thought. It doesn't explain how some children are born into the world facing terrible difficulties- we can't blame their parents thoughts. We can't blame the children's thoughts. It also cannot be explained how the Law works in the case of natural disasters. Okay, why did all those people gather there? Wait, they were already living there. Did the whole community think negative thoughts?
Blaming our thoughts for the reason why negative things happen just leaves me believing that the universe punishes people. We get poverty for povery and sadness for sadness. You know, with a universe like this, humans start to look more appealing. Sometimes you can offer the world sadness and someone will come along and cheer you up. Sometimes you can be poor and think poor thoughts and never think anyone will ever help you and a kind person will give you money and a helping hand.
With the Law, the universe isn't even loving. It's just doing what it is doing. If you saw someone drowning, would you leave them there because they chose that for themself? The Law would. The Law would let the sinking sink and the rising rise, and all the broken hearted people would be doomed to forever be miserable and the happy people would be blessed with eternal bliss. I am reminded of heaven and hell. I do not believe in hell, I cannot believe in the Law, for it speaks like hell. "You chose it." "But, I didn't know what I was doing!" "Too bad, this is what you thought about, this is what you are getting."
Yet, it is hard to escape the truths of the Law of Attraction. Our ability to see the world through rose colored glasses when we are happy, and through a glass darkly when we are sad. With our perceptions altered, the world seems different, but it doesn't make it different.
I choose a universe that continuously works toward harmony and love, giving gifts regardless of attraction. We may not see them when we are down, but that doesn't mean they are not there. I see a universe where Destiny, not Attraction, is the Order to the universe. Because I must have a reason for why bad things happen, and not a bad reason. I want us to have all come to Earth to learn and grow, to experience all sides of life, all aspects of humanity, all the faces of God. I want us to be playing a game, which may look terrible and sad through human eyes at times, and rightly so, but through God's eyes be a glorious dancing of characters who do not die, just change roles, and when they feel pain, the deepness of love is reached. When do we feel the most compassion? When we see another being hurt. When do we feel forgiveness? When we have been hurt. These feelings are great and beautiful expressions of Love. I feel the Law would deny them, for it proclaims ignorance to the suffering around us, so that we do not invite it into our lives. It tells us we must be doing something wrong if we are feeling pain. While Destiny says that if we are feeling pain, it is an act in which we can grow, it is there for our Wholeness in the Grand Scheme of things.
I am very disturbed that the Law of Attraction says that the victims of rape have chosen that for themselves-IN THIS LIFE- by THINKING about it, by being afraid of it. Does not that make the universe cruel? Would you offer someone you loved deeply the thing they were most terribly afraid of? Not even for learning, but just because they were afraid? I couldn't imagine it unless I was being cruel and mean and uncaring. But, they didn't say the universe cared. At least with Destiny, if something as horrible as rape were chosen, it would be from the Higher Self, and chosen intelligently, not by mistake.
So, to prove the Law wrong, I am considering its truths and flaws. I have found it lacking in Love, and too close to a world that Monster God might create. I am treating it like a relative of eternal hell. Something that can be used to scare people into being good. Or, were I being positive, something created to make sense of the world, a gift to those who can use it without losing themselves, or their love for others.
For I do not believe man's greatest aim is joy for himself. I believe man's greatest aim is love. Love for himself and others.